Thursday, November 13, 2014

Kagerou Project

Sasuga Japan. Where else would you get a music CD series that got turned into a light novel, then a manga, then an anime? (Ok so it's a bit like someone taking individual ABBA songs and sewing it up to make a story ie Mamma Mia, except this would be more my kinda thing)



Kagerou Project is just that, leading to the recent Mekakucity Actors anime based on the manga based on the LN based on the drama CDs (and a bunch of Nico fanvids/covers/graphics - geez it's like everyone in Japan can draw/sing/produce music). The anime itself was ok, kept me interested till the end even though it was the standard 'wtf did I just watch' anime ending. Also omg dat Shaft head tilt. XD


I think I'm finally getting the hang of this Vocaloid obsession. I still don't relish the squeaky artificial pitching, but man the Nico covers are pretty damn fine. The original music (lol 'source material') is pretty awesome, I'm loving Jin's pumping basslines the most.

Kagerou Daze is hands down the best song/story of the lot. (and the Nico chorus cover is better too)



Oh man the feeeeellllsssss.

8月15日の午後12時半くらいのこと
天気が良い
病気になりそうなほど眩しい日差しの中
することも無いから君と駄弁っていた
「でもまぁ夏は嫌いかな」猫を撫でながら
君はふてぶてしくつぶやいた
あぁ、逃げ出した猫の後を追いかけて
飛び込んでしまったのは赤に変わった信号機
バッと通ったトラックが君を轢きずって鳴き叫ぶ
血飛沫の色、君の香りと混ざり合ってむせ返った
嘘みたいな陽炎が「嘘じゃないぞ」って嗤ってる
夏の水色、かき回すような蝉の音に全て眩んだ
目を覚ました時計の針が鳴り響くベッドで
今は何時?
8月14日の午前12時過ぎ位を指す
やけに煩い蝉の声覚えていた
でもさぁ、少し不思議だな。
同じ公園で昨日見た夢を思い出した
「もう今日は帰ろうか」道に抜けた時
周りの人は皆上を見上げ口を開けていた
落下してきた鉄柱が君を貫いて突き刺さる
劈く悲鳴と風鈴の音が木々の隙間で空廻り
ワザとらしい陽炎が「夢じゃないぞ」って嗤ってる
眩む視界に君の横顔、笑っているような気がした
何度世界が眩んでも陽炎が嗤って奪い去る。
繰り返して何十年。もうとっくに気が付いていたろ。
こんなよくある話なら結末はきっと1つだけ。
繰り返した夏の日の向こう。
バッと押しのけ飛び込んだ、瞬間トラックにぶち当たる
血飛沫の色、君の瞳と軋む体に乱反射して
文句ありげな陽炎に「ざまぁみろよ」って笑ったら
実によく在る夏の日のこと。
そんな何かがここで終わった。
目を覚ました8月14日のベッドの上
少女はただ
「またダメだったよ」と一人猫を抱きかかえてた

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

How do I asian?

So....my latest obsession is chinese hiphop dance groups cosplaying anime....


So I literally can't stop watching this...it's like there's something sofuckinghot about a Recon guys dance choreo....(hot damn Levi)
still best shingeki

Also, combination of tumblr+imageboards are veryyy bad for feels. I'm gonna need to stock up on 気持ち いい feels cuz work is about to get real shit, real fast.

Sunday, November 2, 2014

好き な 少年 で ある

Took a run for the first time in a long time. Had to be persuaded by friends because I really don't enjoy breathing in icy air and running in wind that hurts my ears. Glad I did, because the ocean was quite pretty. Some endorphins don't hurt either.

At this point, one can only cross their fingers and pray. At the very least, I've started actually working on things I've wanted to do for a long time, ie start drawing properly, learning Japanese, regular exercise, some medical related revision just to keep my knowledge up. I actually want to pick up bass properly. At some point.
これ は マイ ハズバンド, 触れない!!

この 心 は 希望 を 探して

Friday, October 31, 2014

Doors that close and open

I made a big decision. 

There's no turning back now.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

悲しくて, 寂しくて

I unintentionally became the third wheel tonight. The friend I was visiting was meeting another 'friend', who turns out to be a guy she's seeing. I had no idea she was seeing someone, but as the night wore on their affection for each other became more apparent. It was really sweet.

I felt happy for them. But for the first time since I became single I felt a strange emptiness. I know exactly what it is. I also know exactly how a glimpse of others' relationships hardly represent the true picture of the iceberg underneath. けど, 悲しみ の 感じが 消えない

My peers are moving on with life. Making career decisions, taking active steps towards those dreams, buying cars and houses, getting into serious relationships. I feel like the only thing I've got to show for my 25 years are the Great Australian Dream which has become the Great Australian Detour, for which I've put my life on hold.



There probably is someone out there who'll fit my puzzle. ね?

Sunday, October 12, 2014

su.

I cried when she said my name
Maybe this was what I needed. To know I wasn't completely heartless and unfeeling.

Friday, October 10, 2014

まいにち

Everyday is a battle. Everyday is a struggle.

Everyday I remind myself why I do this. Everyday I have to remind myself to treat people with compassion, to have empathy for patients.

Everyday I fail.

Everyday I feel frustration, resentment, Everyday beds get blocked by medically as fit as they can be grannies waiting for arrangements to be made for someone to help them three times a day. Everyday daughters and sons refuse to take their elderly parents home because they 'can't cope'.

Everyday I get calls from GPs trying to push the vulnerable, old, and frail come to the ward I work in as a very last resort. Everyday I become the messenger who gets shot. Everyday I tell myself the things I can't control are not my fault.


Everyday I lose faith. Everyday I lose patience. Everyday I lose compassion.

Everyday I feel little joy in my work and even less sorrow for my patients.

Everyday my heart hardens and my walls rise higher.

Monday, October 6, 2014

笑顔


私も早くオーストラリアに来たい。私 も。

(ちょっと 紹介 します! これ は カラ先生 です。カラ先生 は ブリスベンのサーニーバンク に 住んでいます! でも ペースより ブリスベン が 好き です ね ^^ )

Sunday, October 5, 2014

私 わ ワィブ だ よ!

今日 の 天気 が すごく 悪い です。風 が 強い,雨 が 落ちる, 空 が くらい。けど, 考える - 家 を あります, 電気 が あります, 温水 も あります - とても 幸せ, 私。 (でも イギリス の 天気 が 本当 に 嫌い です よ!

苦しみ な ショタ が 好き です ね。。(きゃあああ~  8D)

Friday, October 3, 2014

otsukare

12 days straight, weekend off, then another 12 days straight. At least I finish at 5 most days, so it's tolerable. The weekends though, dread. Last weekend was so bad I had felt like I needed to physically propel myself forward when walking at the end of the day, because I was that tired.

We had a locum consultant covering the locum consultant who's off because he's done oncall like 2 weeks straight, because the other locum consultant is leaving soon and using up his annual leave. New locum is a regular at Oban and the place sounds like heaven, in the sense that it's not a complete managerial cockup of a hospital. CGH seems to have more useless managers than clinicians, which is completely baffling. They can't afford more doctors...but have weird managers for everything. 

The problem is Wick itself, really. Oban, Stornaway, Shetland, Elgin don't have the same challenge getting consultants to stay, because they aren't complete shitholes to live in. 

Some days at work are kinda like this:



Also, fucking this. 



Then you remember that no matter how bad any hospital in the UK seems, it probably isn't as bad as what goes on in Malaysia. So Faye, man the fuck up, and stop complaining.


Tuesday, September 30, 2014

>>mfw ZnT

Why you shouldn't care about fictional characters
So it's like...this is an Everyone is Kill animu season.

I had a shit day yesterday, so I'm going to bed.

Friday, September 26, 2014

But....Sora... you look funny!

In that hairclip I gave you, obv

You never lose sight of your childhood.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

PS


How it should have ended.

;______________;

今日 わ 休み です



Back to what I used to like.

Weekend work coming up, dread.